2001-04-22T23:26:00.000-07:00

2001-04-22T23:24:00.000-07:00

okay, yes. i'm following the masses and doing this. not that i have a site or anything, so yuh, it's mildly 'tarded since i don't think a lot of people are interested in reading this, or in my opinions. but -ha- if you're here, you're here by choice. unless i forced you through whining about how no one else is, and you had to just to make it stop. in which case, i'm sorry. but not really.
today sucked. and that's being generous. i only left the house once, and i didn't even leave our property. yay me. i didn't even do anything. i usually do something in the course of a day if i stay home. well, no, that's not true. i watched the same tom green shows three times. and i watched 'the haunting' which was actually alright, even if i didn't pay a lot of attention to it. i watched office space again, too. guess what! it -still- sucks. which is too bad 'cause it looked like it had potential.
la la la.
summer's coming. i'm not happy about that, really. i happen to like snow and cold weather and pretty much everything about winter, thankyouverymuch. especially since this winter was just warm and snowy. instead of icy and so cold that your lungs freeze up when you first walk outside like most new hampshire winters. but it wasn't like that, so i miss it a lot, and don't want winter to end.
i don't even really want school to end.. living where i do [an hour or so from all my friends] it's nice to have a chance to see them without having to beg someone to come pick me up. and besides that, summers are always boring. i don't care what anyone says about that, they are. except that i get to ride a lot.. that's good. i haven't really ridden since july. my horse went lame, and by the time i he was sound again, the days were too short and the weather wasn't permitting on weekends. then there was three feet of snow on the ground, which makes it impossible to do a thing. that's the only good thing that'll come out of all my perdy snow going away. i used to live for riding.. i wish it were still like that. it's not that i don't still enjoy it, it's just that it's not the same as it used to be. hardly anyone i used to ride with still rides, and it's impossible to get lesson time with any worthwhile instructors around here, so i'm not getting a whole lot better. and that's all frustrating. but oh well, it's still fun and i still sort of live for it. or i will once the season starts and i get back into the 'swing of things' as it always is.
the stupid sunshine is getting to me. doesn't that sound miserable? most people like sunny days, and stay inside while it rains. nope. not me. i hide from the damned sun, and go walk about and get drenched while it rains. and i -like- it. that kinda worries me. but things are like that. i think it's cause [and here i go with the retarded i-sound-like-i'm-trying-to-sound-deep-but-i'm-not stuff] things are revealed in the sunshine that you don't see when it's all cloudy. and reflections look more interesting then, too. and there isn't so much colour, and i don't like colour. i don't know why. it bothers me. red and blue are the only colours i'll even tolerate.. everything i own is black, white or silver basically. with a few red things thrown in. so.. yeah. i don't know where i was taking that. get a grip lady, huh?
since this is a semi-diaryish thing, i'm going to give you a lil bit of background. so, now for the weekend. this weekend was nice. i spent a bunch of time with katie. katie's cynical and amusing. on friday we went shopping.. sorta. we both got new bags. mine 'cause i'm an impulsive buyer, and hers for her prom dress.. ooh, i'll hafta go off about prom in a second. anyways, yeah. on our way out we saw scott, and we harassed each other for a while and got this elderly couple to laugh when i flipped scott off the cart he was sitting on. yay. thennnn, we went to see 'f'reddy got fingered.' that movie is awesome, and if you don't see it, i'll be forced to bite you or something horrid like that. i managed to laugh throught the entire thing, and then it turns out this guy we know was sitting a few rows in front of us, and that we'd made complete asses of ourselves. so, after feeling all sheepish, we went -back- to the grocery store that scott works at to kick around for a while. yep, we hang out in grocery stores.. i don't think we actually bought anything. oh, we did, which leads us to the checkout line. dear god.. there was this guy in line behind us who... ahhhha, nevermind. that's a story that has to be demonstrated. so, yeah. then there's saturday. katie talked me into working at this christian rock concert that benefits the camp she works at. it was frightening, and katie and i looked rather out of place, to say the least. and the music was bad, to say the least. so we came up with this wickedly evil but very entertaining idea. then we got bored. so we made up a lame story about my mother, who would never bother me when i was out, calling me on my cell phone that i don't have and my having to go home. sooooo, we went shopping again, sorta. and we were hungry, so we ended up at the grocery store again.. we ended up sitting on a bench eating bananas and yogurt and talking about people. which was kind of rude, and i don't generally do it, but i needed to vent. people are just bothering me lately, and i've been getting in these utterly odd fights with them. so, yeah. i got to bitch about that, and we established our reasons for disliking certain people, and certain aspects of other people. [note: i realize i'm talking too much.]
-then- there's the prom. i don't really want to go to the prom. i don't have a date, and i don't really mind that, but it's sorta supposed to be one of those 'highlights of highschool romance' things. so it's kind of lame. especially when you think about the fact that i don't like dancing, either. but my dress is cute, i like it.yep, i'm gonna make you hear about it. it's black [durrrr, lady] and it has perdy dark red roses on it. what else... it's long, laces up the back, and has this perdy drapey thing accross the neckline, and spagetti straps. so, if nothing else, i get to wear that and feel special. and we [katie, liz, sarah and myself, at least, as well as anyone else we can get to join us] will make it entertaining, and something'll come out of it. or else i'll just have spent a ton of money i could have been using on things i actually care about on stuff i don't really have a use for. and on top of all that, it's only my junior prom.

so.. yeah. i feel better now. and, if you've made it this far, i adore you.
g'night.

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